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Ow.Maj wrote:Ess died four hours ago. I can’t.
My heartfelt condolences.
"But transportation issues are social-justice issues. The toll of bad transit policies and worse infrastructure—trains and buses that don’t run well and badly serve low-income neighborhoods, vehicular traffic that pollutes the environment and endangers the lives of cyclists and pedestrians—is borne disproportionately by black and brown communities."
I'm terribly sorry for your loss,Maj wrote:Ess died four hours ago. I can’t.
and to you as well, DSM.DSMatticus wrote:My dad passed away today
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I am so sorry for both of you. There is so much I would like to say but words fail. Despite just being disembodied voices on the internet, if there is anything either of you need, PM me and I'll help you if I can. There is so much that's hard about losing a loved one but I think the hardest is the number of 'routine decisions' you're suddenly confronted with when you need time to grieve. If it's calling people to talk through options and give you a summary so you can focus on everything else, it would be an honor.
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Condolences to both Maj and DSM.
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Oh god. I totally wasn't paying attention when I typed my message. I'm so sorry DSM. I had a few thoughts about death, too. And I need a place to put them. Read or don't. I'm just catharting.
I have been amazed at how important and wonderful I find those moments when someone just says Hi. Or I'm sorry. Even the insurance lady I talked to today to cancel Ess on the car insurance policy. It was a fleeting moment of connection. The posts here? They mean a lot even though they aren't tomes.
Grief goes in waves for me. I had to rearrange my entire kitchen because Ess could actually reach the top shelves of everything and I'm too short. I was getting things done, and I got to his wok, and I just stopped and broke down. That happens often. At random. I talk to him like he's still there.
I am finding that life is harder without a tall person. I can't open or close the window in my bedroom, and we usually leave it open at night because our room gets too hot and he closes it when he gets up for work in the morning. I can rearrange the room if I take out his dresser, but then I can't bring myself to do it because I feel like I'm erasing him.
It's been especially hard because of Giovanni. He's doing as OK as he can, but he just starts crying at random, too. He wanted to go to school today because he didn't want to stay home with the sadness. His entire school is supporting him. I've received calls from at least four staff members and letters from four others.
But Ess and Gi and I had a perfect day on Saturday. We bought concert tickets. We went grocery shopping. We paid bills. We said I love you and goodnight. I have no idea why/how Ess died - he just died in his sleep. But I don't have any regrets, any guilt. And I don't want to know how he died because then I might have a reason to think "If only I'd done ..." or "if only he'd done..."
Death sucks. But I am going to keep surrounding myself in pandas (Ess' totem animal) and delusionally talking to him as though he's there because that's how I can live with it. And whoever thought making 10 hour videos of people talking on youtube was fucking brilliant. It's how I get to sleep.
Grief goes in waves for me. I had to rearrange my entire kitchen because Ess could actually reach the top shelves of everything and I'm too short. I was getting things done, and I got to his wok, and I just stopped and broke down. That happens often. At random. I talk to him like he's still there.
I am finding that life is harder without a tall person. I can't open or close the window in my bedroom, and we usually leave it open at night because our room gets too hot and he closes it when he gets up for work in the morning. I can rearrange the room if I take out his dresser, but then I can't bring myself to do it because I feel like I'm erasing him.
It's been especially hard because of Giovanni. He's doing as OK as he can, but he just starts crying at random, too. He wanted to go to school today because he didn't want to stay home with the sadness. His entire school is supporting him. I've received calls from at least four staff members and letters from four others.
But Ess and Gi and I had a perfect day on Saturday. We bought concert tickets. We went grocery shopping. We paid bills. We said I love you and goodnight. I have no idea why/how Ess died - he just died in his sleep. But I don't have any regrets, any guilt. And I don't want to know how he died because then I might have a reason to think "If only I'd done ..." or "if only he'd done..."
Death sucks. But I am going to keep surrounding myself in pandas (Ess' totem animal) and delusionally talking to him as though he's there because that's how I can live with it. And whoever thought making 10 hour videos of people talking on youtube was fucking brilliant. It's how I get to sleep.
My son makes me laugh. Maybe he'll make you laugh, too.
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Let me echo deaddm's sentiments. If there is anything that I can do to help either of you over the vastness of the internet, please let me know.
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"But transportation issues are social-justice issues. The toll of bad transit policies and worse infrastructure—trains and buses that don’t run well and badly serve low-income neighborhoods, vehicular traffic that pollutes the environment and endangers the lives of cyclists and pedestrians—is borne disproportionately by black and brown communities."
Oh Maj, that's awful. My heart goes out to you and your son.
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I'm so sorry DSM and Maj.
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If you wanted to participate in a conversation, you've lost that right. You are a non-human now. You are over and cancelled. No concern of yours can ever matter to any member of the human race ever again.
Ditto; and if it helps, I'm still in the DFW area.Josh_Kablack wrote:Let me echo deaddm's sentiments. If there is anything that I can do to help either of you over the vastness of the internet, please let me know.
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That's fucking awful. I am so sorry.
I'll echo the sentiment here and say if there's anything either of you need, I am happy to help.
I'll echo the sentiment here and say if there's anything either of you need, I am happy to help.
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On my own personal note, this was Tuesday!:
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"But transportation issues are social-justice issues. The toll of bad transit policies and worse infrastructure—trains and buses that don’t run well and badly serve low-income neighborhoods, vehicular traffic that pollutes the environment and endangers the lives of cyclists and pedestrians—is borne disproportionately by black and brown communities."